sporadic behaviour

5.21.08 Crazy thoughts running in every corner. convulsing pulse rates and heart beat could not be mended now. i cant help but think in volatile, mind is in havoc over a person whom i tried to comprehend but yet he was'nt there, he wasnt missing me after all. i hate things to die down for no reason, without a good fight, without effort. Everything becomes abstract to a playful destiny; im churned by fire and swallowed with conformity. But it vanished into thin air; i cant go beyond nor stay on this world that long if i would think he still existed; im too exhausted to think now. Its eating and tearing me down like an ice cream melting under a normal temperature; what is so advantage of this ice cream is that theres this tongue to lick the drips and hands that holds unto it. Sad to say but i am closing a chapter where i become so foolish, too drowned with elopeness, revved up for excitement me, but it wont get me anywhere nor hook me to a place where i can be of myself. i hope i m...

it was a rainy saturday; we had fun again for the shoot. The Project: Photoshoot for the COVER Sun.star Plus and Special, Mother's Day Supplement The Models: Cheryll Ballreich (Anthony's better behalf) and kids elle and anton. Thnx to this guys, they were so patient and caring. We invited a special fotog for this issue. JOSEPH Ong; what a great guy to work with. he is so manageable, his work ethics is so pro. I like him best when hes quite and thinking and he is a burst of ideas that he shed into us. thnx for his great clicks that even surreal quiteness was just incognito. with the essence of fresco everything's breezy! Again, the production could never be complete without the whole cast of beauties, me Emily, Jello and Bobbie. Attached foto was a candid(kuno) portrait by him!

5.3.08 im here right now for pinamungajan fiesta, with lots of goodies thaT surprises me. but i still missing someone... my texter, my boyf! miss MINE so much. tomorrow, its our monthsary and hes not texting:(